More on Journey's End - Mostly about Doctor/Rose

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Now that I've had a bit of time to collect my thoughts I realize I'm left with two things that will not stop niggling at me. The first being about Donna and I know there's nothing to consider in changing what happened with her unless she shows up again saying "Oi, space man! I remember everything and I fixed it because I'm awesome and now I can travel with you forever!" but that's not going to happen so I'm resorting to whining a bit about it. I'm just so sad about what happened with her getting her memory wiped. I really wish this would have ended differently but I know it probably couldn't have without her dying. Sigh. I can however still cling to the idea that she might someday return. Because this is sci-fi remember? Anything can happen ;)

Alright... Ten, 10.5 & Rose. As pleased as I am with the outcome, because really I am, it's what I wanted, I still can't help but feel it's a little unresolved. I think I feel that way because we didn't have much interaction with 10.5, he really didn't do all that much (excluding destroying the Daleks of course) and he kind of stood off to the side as original!Doctor bounced around doing things. And he had little interaction with Rose prior to Bad Wolf Bay. I think if he'd had a bit more time, especially with Rose it would have made the whole transition not feel so rushed.

I reiterate what I said before, 10.5 is the Doctor, he's the same but just a bit different and in a human body. And original!Doctor knowing he could never live that life that part of him wants so desperately, it's the best gift he could give Rose. And 10.5 does need her, just as Nine and Ten did and she needs him. And really it's saying something about the Doctor, entrusting himself and Rose for that matter to each other, he wasn't just abandoning them. He was giving her the one thing he could never have and I like to think in a way he was giving it to himself as well. This way they could be together and he could tell her the things she deserves to hear and the things that he deserves to be able to say.

Another aspect of the Doctor & Rose's relationship that I love is how selflessly she is when it comes to him. No matter what the situation was, she was steadfastly by his side and more focused on him rather than herself. A prime example of what I mean is at the end of Fear Her when she's talking to the asphalt guy and says "who's gonna hold his hand now" and there she was stuck out of her time all by herself and she was more concerned about him than herself. I can't help but think she would be thinking the same after original!Doctor left them on the beach and that makes me kind of sad. Of course she probably assumed that Donna would be with him which makes me even a bit more sad knowing the outcome of that. I'm still working through sad!lonely!Ten and I know it probably had to end up that way as is the nature of the show but I can't help but want him to have a happy ending too. I suppose he does in a way with 10.5 and I think the sacrifice Ten made was also selfless and completely for Rose. Because that's how much he cares for her.

I think I just want a bit of confirmation that all is well in the alt!world with 10.5 and Rose. It sort of felt abrupt the way they were left standing on the beach (and yes I do find the parallel of it to Doomsday sort of heartbreaking) while original!Doctor and the TARDIS just disappeared. Of course I'll always think them to be happy, like I said I like to imagine them doing something fantastic, maybe growing/building another time/space machine and traveling and happily growing old together. That they will actually have their forever, together. And that certainly makes me happy.

I mentioned my thoughts on having one of the specials set in the alt!world with 10.5 and Rose and I really, really want that now too. I still think it pretty unlikely to ever happen but I can still want it. And this does leave perfect opportunity for David & Billie to come back at some time in the future and that'd be absolutely grand. If RTD was still running the show, I'd say this would definitely be a possibility, not so sure with SM but really, one can never know. So I can hope for it. And read fanfic about it in the meantime. Yes, I need to read some happy 10.5/Rose in the alt!world fanfic, I've eyed several promising looking ones already that I'm itching to read. And also upload some new icons, I've saved some absolutely wonderful ones that I need to make room for. And I thought DW icons were taking over my journal before muwhahaha ;)



And I promise it's not as long as the last one ;P