I promise I won't keep going on about this...

[stargater]

But I wanted to say this too. And it's short.



How can a single thing make me so happy and so sad at exactly the same time? Gah! It's maddening really. I'm happy for 10.5 & Rose but sad for Ten & Rose, sad he didn't give either of them a choice in the matter, sad that he's left all on his own again. But I'm happy about all those other reasons I've talked about in previous posts. So really, how can I be both happy and sad about the same thing at the same time? It doesn't make sense, that.

I can honestly say that I've never had a fandom that has taken me on so many ups and downs, highs and lows and made me cry tears of both happiness and heartbreak. I mean it's a TV show for crying out loud! But a brilliant one at that. I think I might be crashing from a Who-high. I expect this will pass in a day or so after I've reached a certain level of acceptance and closure for it. I'm just not quite there yet.

And when did I become so emotional and vocal about these things? *ponders*

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[rachelbeann.livejournal.com]

This icon about covers it in my eyes.

[stargater.livejournal.com]

Agreed.

[faithfulpuppy85.livejournal.com]

Any idea who his new companion will be next season if he even has one. I think he needs a male companion.

[stargater.livejournal.com]

No idea. Other than the Christmas special, I've not seen or heard anything about what's to come.

[narniadear.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I was rather ashamed at how much it affected me. Not that it's bad, but I felt like I had let myself get too attached. *sigh* I was definitely in a funk for the rest of Saturday, semi-normal yesterday because I had church and stuff to distract me, and then today it's been on my mind again. I've made my own icons of the happy times and I'm going to remove the icon group from my flist now. I can't have an icon of the kiss because it makes me think too much about it again. I have to say that I'm doing better than I did after Doomsday, but yeah. This is sadder in a way because I feel like New Who has reached the end of an epoch. I'm not sure if I'll like the next one now that this one is tied up so neatly. It'll be like a completely new series.

[stargater.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's been kind of on my mind ever since. And the icons, oh the icons. I can't bear to use any of those either I don't think. I've saved many of them because they're beautiful but it does just remind me all over again. For me, this was worse than Doomsday (and I mean worse in an emotional sense) because with Doomsday there was no confusion, it was just downright sad and heartbreaking. Journey's End however is both happy and sad and all the above. It's like I can deal with one of the extremes but not so much with both at the same time. And I agree about series 5 being new, it will seem new probably in more ways than one. I'm both excited and apprehensive about it. I don't know, it's all just so confusing right now!

[narniadear.livejournal.com]

My problem now is that I was so enthralled with the Doctor/Rose ending and everyone else that Donna's whole FINAL situation is just now starting to sink in. I just watched the Confidential and that's when I finally cried about Donna. When Catherine Tate said "She probably will end up not ever living up to her potential because she doesn't know it's there." Just about broke my heart.

[stargater.livejournal.com]

Oh, I agree. I was upset and cried some about Donna the first time and then yes during that bit of the Confidential (sigh) but I don't know that it really had sunk in just yet either. Until last night when I watched the episode again and got all upset over Donna's ending. I haven't posted much about it because there's really nothing that can make me feel better about it right now. Unless of course Donna in her awesomeness returns. And sitting here right now, typing this, I looked up and saw the icon I used above from Turn Left and it made me think about how fantastic Donna was in everything and I just about started crying again. What is wrong with me?! This show is wrecking havoc with my emotions.

[narniadear.livejournal.com]

Nothing's wrong with you. We've all been worked up for a full month. It's normal for us to take a while to pull ourselves together again. Honestly, after Doomsday, I cried for days. At work! All I had to do was think of it and I was a mess. Ha, I laugh. If you want some hilarity, head back to my doomsday posts last september. I was so schmoopy.

It's understandable though. Donna is US. She's the normal girl that got the Doctor and was his best friend. Hell, she got to BE the Doctor for a while. No wonder we're heartbroken.

[stargater.livejournal.com]

You're right of course. And I was really worked up for this finale. ahh schmoopy Doomsday sigh. I wonder why this has me so much more worked up than that did? Though it did take me days to get over it as well, but it wasn't like this though.

It'll probably be awhile before I can go back and watch past episodes again without getting upset. It happened after Doomsday as well and I think I'll have that to go through that again thinking about watching s1 & s2 eps. And of course s4, but I don't think I'll be able to watch anything with Donna without thinking of what happened with her in Journey's End.

Another part might be the uncertainty of what's to come and we've got such a long wait for it. I still feel the need for a bit more closure or follow-up.

[narniadear.livejournal.com]

I completely agree. I just told my friend (who is revelling in the finale and reliving it with discussion and rewatches and fanvids because she's a Rose/10 shipper with a vengeance) that I just can't talk about it. I haven't posted in any of the discussion threads and I haven't talked about it with anyone but you (and this is meta-doctor discussions). I've pulled out of all Who groups here on LJ. I'm just done with it now. Laura put it really well the other day when she said "I'm glad it's done! It was starting to stress me out." I kind of feel the same way.

I think the reason this is even harder to get over than Doomsday is that we had to wait a week between each intallment. We've been psyched up for this finale for almost 4 months and that's a huge height to descend from afterwords...and we didn't really descend. Most of us fell with a mighty thud. :)

Yeah, I couldn't watch Doomsday for a couple weeks. I think I'll leave this whole season alone for a while. I haven't had any desire to rewatch it yet. I'll just enjoy my icons. :)

[stargater.livejournal.com]

It was kind of stressful wasn't it! And you're totally right about falling with a thud, I think that's exactly how I'd describe it.

I won't leave any communities or anything but a little break from it probably isn't a bad idea. I'm still excited for the specials though, because even if this did drain me near completely, I still want more :P

[sunnytyler001.livejournal.com]

"How can a single thing make me so happy and so sad at exactly the same time? "
Same here. And the worst is that I can't get over that awful feeling.

[stargater.livejournal.com]

It's definitely going to take a bit of time I suspect.

[abrynne.livejournal.com]

I can honestly say that I've never had a fandom that has taken me on so many ups and downs, highs and lows and made me cry tears of both happiness and heartbreak. I mean it's a TV show for crying out loud!

Amen! That is what I keep telling myself and yet I continue to live for this said television show. Weird, isn't it?
I remember after watching Doomsday for the first time I was literally depressed for about a week afterwards. I would be sitting at my desk at work when the images from the episode came into my head and I would stare at my computer monitor in a depressed stupor. It's very strange.
I wasn't as depressed as that after this one but I was a little depressed. The saddest thing was Donna fo' sho'.

I think the only solution is that this show and these characters are downright magical.

[stargater.livejournal.com]

Weird indeed. And the same goes for me as well. I think what's strange for me here is that I'm happy, sad and depressed about it all at the same time. I really wish I could just choose one emotion to stick with and go on :P

And agreed, all these characters we've seen are wonderful. I love them to bits. In my own little perfect place, the happy TARDIS party would never end :)

[black-raven-87.livejournal.com]

I wish I had felt something. :/

[stargater.livejournal.com]

:(