DW: The End of Time part 2

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Wow. I know I say this every time but I think I might actually be speechless this time. Or at least as close to speechless as I can get. After the episode, I must have sat staring at my computer monitor numb for at least 20 minutes just trying to digest it all. I don't think I have just yet either, it's probably going to hit me in waves over the next couple of weeks.

This finale... I don't know what to say about it. It was kind of wtf?, silly, timey-wimey, incredibly heartbreaking and a bit fantastic. I completely 100% agree with how the Doctor went out, he totally would have gave his life to save Wilf. And I KNEWWWW that was coming when Wilf went into the box. Then when he knocked four times and the Doctor then KNEW what was going to happen next, he rages about it then does just what the Doctor always does... he gives himself for someone else. It was incredibly emotional. David was absolutely, fantastically brilliant.

Despite all the crazy bits, this episode brought not only Rusty's era of Doctor Who to full circle, but Ten's as well. Both of RTD's Doctor's gave their life for someone else, someone they cared very much for - Nine for Rose and Ten for Wilf. That in essence is who the Doctor is and he desperately doesn't want to go, yet he does anyway because that's who he is. I really liked his "reward", that he got to see all the people he loved one more time. He got to say his goodbye to each of them and I think they knew, they all knew it was the last time they'd see him wearing that face. Except Rose of course, but in my personal canon she suddenly remembers meeting him one night in Pete's World and Handy senses his regeneration so they know and it's like a goodbye to them as well. I'll admit I really wished we had gotten a scene like this but alas... So someone really needs to write a fic on this... *coughs* AHEM. Sorry, where was I? Oh yeah, full-circle... And RTD said it beautifully in the Confidential, it brings Ten back to where he started, he regenerated into Ten there on the Estate and so he does again into Eleven. I loved that.

Of course, I bawled through the entire thing but I was really saddened that he regenerated alone. I really wanted someone there with him but I suppose that's quite Ten - In the end, he always ends up alone. *SNIFFS*

Random things:
- WORST. RESCUE. EVER. I LOL'd so hard at that, it was absolutely hilarious. And poor David in the Confidential, how many times they did takes on that and how long he was strapped into that contraption being bounced about. And is it totally wrong of me to want that life-sized David doll that they made (because of his back surgery awhile back) for the long stunt shots? It really looks scarily A LOT like him. *coughs*

And the contraption... it kind of reminded me of that part in Hannibal when Lecter is wheeling Mason Verger in his chair to the edge of the pig pit and tosses him over. I haven't a clue why it makes me think of this, I think it's just the combination of the wheely chair with all the straps. Nevertheless, it disturbs me.

- WILF. I <3 WILF. This was beautiful, it's so perfect in it's simplicity. The Doctor, this 906 year old Time Lord gives his own life, a life that he's so desperate to keep, for an ordinary human. *sniff*

- Timothy Dalton and the Time Lords. That sounds like a great name for a band doesn't it? Anyway, so he was Rassilon? Or another Time Lord that took the name of Rassilon? And they were trapped in a Timelock all this time? Interesting that they had gone a bit mad and were plotting the End of Time so they could ascend to an even higher place. I don't know, it's all a bit crazy but certainly explains why the Doctor would have destroyed them along with the Daleks. And probably also explains why he would speak of them so dearly, he probably never could come to except that his own people were going selfishly end everything and time itself so they could "ascend".

- The Master escapes again! This was a given really.

- I'm glad that the injuries we seen Ten with were from his fall through the glass because really, I don't think I could have handled seeing him beaten and torn down otherwise to a state like that. That scene was hard enough to watch on it's own.

- Mickey & Martha? Where the hell did that come from? Not that I mind I suppose, but what happened to Tom Milligan? And Martha left UNIT? I guess I could see her and Mickey off running about fighting aliens on their own. Hmm.

- Donna's wedding, yay! I'm just glad she's alive and well and happy.

- The Lady in White, curious figure that she is. I actually happen to like that we didn't find out who she is. It leaves it up to our imagination, a hope that perhaps she represents us all in our love for the Tenth Doctor. The spoilers I read so long ago claimed she is the Doctor's mother but I really don't know about that. I did find it curious that when Wilf asked, the Doctor looked at Silvia then over to Donna, it was obviously a look of knowing but not for us. Could she have been Donna? I see this as more plausible than the Doctor's mother. She was the DoctorDonna after all and this is Doctor Who, it could happen. I even sort of like the idea that it could be Donna.

- The poor TARDIS. All on fire and falling down around Ten as he regenerated. *SOBS*

- Gratuitous Star Wars references FTW! RTD even pointed one out in the Confidential. Here, I'll list a few of them ...
**Wilf in the ship turret just like Luke. "Great, kid. Don't get cocky!"
**Jack in the bar looked like something straight out of Mos Eisley Cantina. "A wretched hive of scum and villainy!"
**There's another one but I'm having trouble remembering it right now

If you haven't or were thinking about not doing so, you really should watch the Confidential. It actually helped me, I think, come out of the shock of Ten's regeneration. But I cried harder than anything at the part where on David's last day of filming, before he left, they called him back for "a reference shot" and everyone clapped and cheered for him and hit him with a confetti cannon then he got all choked up and emotional and nearly started crying. I just <33 him so much.

About Smithy:
I think I'm going to like Eleven. Well, once he's OUT OF TEN'S CLOTHES that is. I want him out of Ten's suit and Ten's TARDIS then I think I'll quite like him. He's goofy and quirky and I think he'll be pretty funny. He reminds me of Four. LOL @ RTD in the Confidential on Matt wearing Ten's outfit "that's just wrong, wear your own clothes!" My thoughts exactly LOL. Also, "still not ginger!" FTW!

This is one of those cases where I'm really glad lots of things are changing, I'm glad things like the TARDIS will be different etc... It signifies that series 5 is the beginning of a new show really and that RTD's era will be concluded and remembered how he meant it to be.

Strangely, I'm not nearly as devastated at the moment as I thought I'd be. Which is not to mean it's not as heartbreaking and brilliant as I expected it to be but I don't think I've fully took everything in yet. I almost feel like I've even made peace with it, or at least am in the process of making peace with it. I think it sort of happened as I was writing this speechless post. 'Course that could change once I start looking at series 5 stuff and whining that I want David back :P It's sort of like an emotional roller coaster, there are ups and downs and eventually the ride's gonna end. This show has took me on so many ups and downs, I've laughed and cried and raged sometimes all at the same time. I've never had a tv show affect me quite like this one has. It will always, always hold a special place in my heart.

Ten's last words: "I don't want to go" and we didn't want you to go but he went out with one hell of a last hurrah.

iolausian said it best when she told me last week about a quote she'd read: "Don't cry because it's over. Smile, because it happened." And that's exactly what I'm doing at the moment. The last four years wouldn't have been the same without Ten and I'm so glad that I was able to share in that :)

Um. Right, so it seems I wasn't exactly speechless. I just start typing and find that I can't stop. Sry :x




Goodbye Ten...You are and always will be my Doctor.